Thursday, December 06, 2007


It has really been a while, hasn't it? I have been struggling quite a bit lately. I have been discouraged by one of my psych classes. I don't know, I guess it is me because other students seem to be doing well, but I am really struggling on the tests.

I have been wondering a lot lately if psychology is what I should be here for. I am thinking that special education is what I should be doing. It is what I loved for the past 13 years. It is something I know I am good at, and I know I can make a difference. Let's face it, I can get the sped degree and have enough time left to do something with it.

I don't think I have enough years left in me to make any real difference in psychology. The kind of research I would want to be a part of would take some serious longitudinal studies, and lets face it, 20 years may not cover it. I will be hitting my 50s by the time I could get a PhD.

Unless someone figures out how to fix the aging gene in time!

Thanksgiving was Thanksgiving this year. Turkey, the best stuffing in the world, mashed potatoes and pumpkin pie. And three term papers. Yeah, it was loads of fun. And Zach turned 20 a couple of days before turkey day.

Now, winter solstice is upon us. Nothing would make me happier than to hibernate for a few months. My mind is as slow as molasses. (not my mouth, just my mind!) A Christmas tree awaits assembly. I still have three more term papers to write. They are due next week. Then finals. Where will I find the energy?

One of my term papers is a behavior mod program to get me running again. Apparently, I have gained enough weight to make running physically harmful. So I have had to make it a walk, which will eventually turn into a run. I tried a small amount of running last night, ankle wanted to act up again. Well, I did it before, I can do it again.

You know, usually when I feel like this I try to write something profound, some kind of prose. I'm just not up to it yet.

So that's where I am. No wonder I haven't written. I have nothing good to say.


  1. Good to see you back!
    Yes that aging gene! Runs amuck!

  2. Cheri, just because one class is challenging to you doesn't mean you should switch majors. Remember, you came to learn something new and difficult, so if you are occasionally challenged, that's actually a good thing.

    As for the rest, well, easy does it. When you get more active, your mind will feel a little more active, too. At least, that's always how it's been for me. Hey, you could always do the "Walk to Rivendell" thing I linked to on my website!

  3. Take a deep breath and clear your mind...

    Now, ask yourself, "What do I really want to do??"

    No, really. Do that. Then, without thinking blurt out the answer. Don't think. Just blurt.

    That is the answer. No, really. There's hardcore research (with appropriately designed trials, no less) to back that up!

  4. MOM, No matter what you decide to do you will make a great difference. This world need more people who are as dedicated as you. Just because this class has given you some major problems, you are pretty much done with it! You will never have to worry about it again. B's aren't bad. All that matters is that you did your best.

    Now the weight issue... We should both make a goal to get into shape so that we can do the fun run in march.