Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Super Tuesday? What so super about it?

Ok, I know. I KNOW!

Remember when I hinted that Megan might need a maid of honor for herself? Well, Steve proposed to her! They have scheduled the ceremony for May 24, 2008. Yes, just two weeks after finals. But, I am really happy for her. I think she has found a really good guy, and they seem to be a good fit. I think this one is the forever kind.

School is trudging along. We have two bus drivers. The Tuesday/Thursday guy is a really good driver (I watched him drive through a horrible winter storm last week, so I know!). The Monday/Wednesday/Friday guy is afraid to drive.

Last Monday, we hit a snow storm and he couldn't see the road, so we pulled over at a truck stop to wait, which was fine with me. What wasn't fine with me was that we waited AT LEAST a half hour longer than we needed to before he drove us back home. Visibility was greatly improved, I could see at least a mile. But he wanted to wait until it got lighter so he could see. Grrrr! I would have driven myself up that day, but we didn't get back in time for me to make it on time.

Then on Wednesday, I didn't give him the chance - I don't know if they went. Friday, the roads were closed until 9:30, so that wasn't his fault. I drove up for my lab, because I really needed to be there.

Yesterday, I looked on the Idaho Transportation Department site to see if the roads were closed. I84 from the I86/I84 junction to the Utah/Idaho border was closed, but I86 was open from mile marker 1 to Pocatello. I showed up to the pick up site (5:10 a.m.!) just to be told by this driver that the roads were closed to American Falls. I was so mad! I filled my car up with gas (the gas tank, not the car) and drove to Pocatello. No, the roads weren't closed. There was a 3-5 mile stretch where visibility was bad due to blowing snow, but other than that, it was fine.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I know bad weather is still coming.

Last Monday was horrible. I don't really know what is going on with Zach. He thinks the medication he is on is not working. He threw a tantrum last Monday and my left arm (and a few other parts) ended up all black and blue. It scared the crap out of me. There really isn't anything I can do right now, but when summer gets here, I am going to work really hard at getting him out on his own. With good supports.

I don't know how my sculpture class is going. I think I am learning. My painting class - well - I really hate one certain part of that class. Leaving. I mean it! I could stay there and paint all day. I'm sure of it. I still haven't finished even one painting, though I am getting close. I think I should win the lottery so I can stay home and paint all day. Maybe I could get committed - and spend all of my time painting. I actually have fantasized about suffering from a dissociative fugue. My brain never lets me forget. Anything. Ever.

Do you suppose that there will ever come a time when my life will actually be about me? Yes, I haven't written much because I have been in the January fog. I can feel it lifting a bit, but I'm not quite ok yet. Good things are happening all around me - and all I can do is watch. I am walking through molasses and I'm the only one who knows it. Ah - life.

Oh, and I'm glad Huckabee isn't leading.


  1. Congratulations to Megan!
    Hope Zach finds some peace, and if it is his meds, hope they get sorted. My face is black and blue at the mo from a similar thing.

  2. Bad side: My state produced a near 3-way tie between McCain, Romney, and Huckabee, with Huckabee ahead. Wretch.

    Good side: My state is solidly with Obama!