In March of 2007 tragedy hit Twin Falls. A woman was murdered and found on a ledge under the Perrine Bridge. Our media did a horrible job covering the story, treating it like a National Enquirer story. They focused solely on the murderer and his subsequent suicide. I wanted to to know more about the woman who was murdered, and felt that I wasn't alone due the fact that this post was receiving a lot of traffic from all over the state. The following was my plea to readers.
Dear Visitor:I continued to get a lot of traffic for this post, and a few people left comments. Some were as bewildered as I about how the media handled the incident. Some knew Kimberly Ann Payton and wrote that she was very much loved and missed. Those comments satisfied my need to know she had value in the lives of others, and I decided to let it go - Until I got a comment from Kim's sister, which prompted me to add the following to this post:
I’m still getting a lot of hits from people googling about Kim Ann Payton, and since I know so little about her, I’m going to ask you visitors: Did you know Kim Ann Payton? If you knew her, knew of her, knew anything about her: where was she from? What was she like? What were her goals and interests in life? What was her life like?
These are questions that haunt me. She was a woman who was murdered and dumped, then displayed like she had no meaning. She had to have had at least as much meaning as the man who killed her. He got a full, pictured obituary and LDS funeral. She didn’t even get a death notice! She deserves better.
If you do know anything at all about her, please leave a comment here, or e-mail me at clrcl@excite.com. I would really appreciate any information at all that could let me put this to rest. Apparently, I’m not the only one who is looking for answers.
Thank you in advance for any information you can give.
Cheri
Update 1/13/2008: I have received a lot of traffic on this post, and some very
good comments. Today Kim's sister commented about her sister. Please take a
moment to read about Kimberly Ann Payton from someone who really knew her well,
and loved her dearly. I am so happy to know that she was well loved and sorely
missed. A lot of people had her on their minds and hearts over the holidays. I
hope they managed to find a little peace through the pain.
Since that time, regular traffic from people who knew and loved Kim has kept this post in the top ten most visited posts on my blog. To me, this post has become a kind of memorial to Kimberly Ann Payton. A place where people can come and read the comments left by others. I offered to post pictures and links that are important to her family.
The media had a picture of Kim, but nothing like these. She was so beautiful. Her death was truly a loss to this world. I hope to keep adding pictures and links for as long as the people who loved her send them to me. Keep checking back, and don't forget to check the comments. Her family regularly posts comments letting her know how much she is loved and missed.
Hi there -
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure how i found your website but i googled Kim Payton (not Peyton) and read about her awful death...she was from Northern California and grew up dancing ballet, she was very talented. Her sister Kristi Payton is on myspace if you search for her - i'm sure she'd love to hear from you.
I would always love to hear about my sister....thank you
DeleteKristi Dawn Payton
HI,
ReplyDeleteI knew Kim when I was younger. I am good friends with her brother Jody Payton. I hadn't seen Kim in years so it was sad to hear the news of her passing. I know she attended schools in Moraga, CA (Bay Area). I feel sorry that the family has to go through this suffering because of this senseless murder.
Thank you so much for your replies. It is such a sensless thing that happened. Thank you for the information on her family, and my thoughts are definitely with them. I wish the media here had done a better job letting us know who she was and where she was from. She deserves that much.
ReplyDeleteI went through all of my previous posts and corrected the spelling of her name. Thank you for the heads up.
ReplyDeleteIt still bothers me that the Times News never printed a thing (Not even a simple, free, death notice???) about her. What a slap in the face to her family.
ReplyDeleteI, too, would have like to see a death notice. It is my understanding that the death notices that get published in the Times News are sent in by mortuaries. If someone wants to have one published outside of that arena, they have to pay to have on published.
ReplyDeleteIt would have been up to her family/boyfriend to do that. I have considered contacting one of her family members, but I prefer to respect their privacy in this difficult time.
I'm just relieved to know that she has so many people who do miss her.
Hi,
ReplyDeleteMy girlfriend is kimmy's cousin...she was a great person from what i knew...she came from cali. before she went to idaho...most of her family is in New York but her parents and few others are still in cali...this was a wake up call for me because it started as an arguement with her boyfriend that made her want 2 go 2 the bar..met a guy then winds up dead...DONT ARGUE WITH THE ONES U LOVE many things can happen in a flash
The argument was about getting me to go to The bar on a Thursday. I wanted to go but had papers to grade. It's been five years. Kim was one of my favorite people. I'd much rather chill with her than grade third grade reading tests. We made each other laugh. I miss that.
DeleteI cant believe its been five years already...march 9th...she was one of my favorite people too and knowing I have to live the rest of my life without her is something I try not to think about because knowing that fills me with unbearable pain and that feeling of emptiness and anxiety like someone kicked you in your stomach! I was talking to a friend who lost his father 30 years ago and when he spoke of him he got all choked up and his eyes filled with tears and all I could think was is it really possible that in 30 years I will still feel so sad and still miss her so much, and that gave me very mixed emotions...the first was that I didnt want to still be in so much pain that many years from now, the second was that it made me realize that no matter how much time went by, I was not going to ever forget her or the relationship we had or how much i loved her and what a special closeness sisters had! Sisters are connected at the heart and maybe you dont always like them as much as you do a girlfriend but you love them much much more amd maybe you would rather spend more of your time with one of your girlfriends but if that girlfriend wronged you the same way your sister did she would no longer be your girlfriend and you would no longer like that girl! I will never meet anyone that i could have such a random off the wall intelligent conversation like her and I would have or that could talk to me with her eyes and not even open her mouth! No one will ever make me laugh as hard as her...she was truly one of a kind and although she drove me absolutely nuts most of the time, I would give anything for her to be blowing up my phone right now or calling my work trying to get me fired or a boyfriend i was on a break with that I was cheating on him....I would absolutely take her crazy outbursts every single day of my life just as long as I could call her on the phone when I cant remember the name of someone or the words to a song, just as long as I could hug her and smell her and hear her laugh anytime or even just one more time! I dont waste too much energy hating him although I am sure I do...I am pretty sure he hated him too and that he must have been a pretty miserable person, a tortured soul, but he will never take another life or tear another family apart and he will never leave another girl without her sister causing her to completely lose it and head down a spiraling path of self destruction, feeling so lost without her in this world with me and knowing i will be in it without her for the rest of my life and hoping and praying desperately that the hurt he caused when he took her life will eventually go away-but eventually accepting the fact that it wont and that thats ok! He took her from me but he didnt take me and he doesnt deserve for me to hate him because I refuse to have hatred in my heart, hatred and resentment only hurts the person that hates and resents and he hurt me enough! I think I am ready to make god and my sister proud and do her some justice and start speaking to junior senior girls at high schools maybe to tell our story in hopes to save even just one family from being victim to such violence and heartache, hopefully i can prevent many from this tragedy, I know I can try and I know that there has to be as much positive and good thats possible come out of her brutal murder, because I cant bring her back, but I can make the world a better place because of what I have been thru....I am only one person but I can make a difference and I still believe there are way more good people than bad! hey now hey now dont dream its over...the world will come and build a wall between us,. but we know they wont win!!!!!
Deletemiss and love you kimmy
thats one thing he couldnt take from me!
I grew up with Kim's sister Kristi, I just found out about Kim tonight from another old friend and decided to look online to see what I could find. I'm still in shock and can't believe something like this could happen to someone I know. It's so devasting and truely makes you appreciate the people in your life. Her family is in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI AM KIMS SISTER, SO YES I KNEW HER MORE THAN ANYONE IN THE WORLD AS SHE DID ME. MY SISTER WAS WITHOUT A DOUBT THE MOST INTELLIGENT, WITTY, INTERSTING, WOMAN I WILL EVER HAVE BEEN LUCKY ENOUGH TO KNOW. SHE WAS OFTEN UNHAPPY, HER LIFE WAS HARDER FOR HER THAN SHE DESERVED IT TO BE AND I AM FAITHFUL GOD HAD A REASON FOR HER SUFFERING WHILE LIVING AND RIGHT UP TO HER LAST BREATH. WHEN HER FIANCE CALLED TO TELL ME SHE HAD NOT COME HOME IT WAS'NT ENTIRELY ABNORMAL BEHAVIOR FOR HER BUT STILL I FELT SOMETHING WAS NOT RIGHT. SHE WOULD HAVE CALLED ME OR SOMEONE, SHE LIVED ON HER PHONE SO IMMEDIATELY I FILED A MISSING PERSONS REPORT. THE IDAHO POLICE KNEW SHE WAS DEAD BUT DID NOT TELL ME. WITHIN 10 MINUTES THE POLICEIN MY CITY WERE AT MY FRONT DOOR, INTERROGATED MY MOTHER AND I IN SEPERATE ROOMS FOR 2HRS AND THEN LEFT ONLY TO RETURN IN 15MIN SENT MY MOM AND DAUGHTER UPSTAIRS TOOK ME TO THE KITCHEN TO TELL ME THE NEWS THAT WAS THE FURTHEST THOUGHT IN MY MIND AND WOULD CHANGE MY LIFE FOREVER. I WILL NEVER FORGET THE OFFICERS EXACT WORDS "KRISTI, I HAVE BAD NEWS" STILL MY THOUGHT WAS SO FAR OFF OF WHAT I WAS ABOUT TO HEAR...'YOU'RE SISTER IS NO LONGER WITH US..IT'S NOT YET CONSIDERED A HOMOCIDE BUT IT IS UNDER SUSPICIOS CIRCUMSTANCES" I COLLAPSED TO THE FLOOR AND SCREAMED NO! EVERYTHING SAID AFTER THAT SEEMED SO FAR AWAY AS IF IT WAS THRU A TUNNEL. YOU WATCH CSI 20/20, YOU KNOW IT HAPPENS BUT YOU ARE NEVER NOR SHOULD YOU EVER BE PREPARED FOR IT TO HAPPEN TO YOU..AFTERALL FEAR AND LOVE CANNOT OCCUPY THE SAME SPACE. IF ONLY THAT WAS TRUE BUT TO ME IN ORDER TO LOVE, WITH THAT COMES FEAR AND MANY OTHER EMOTIONS. SHE WAS VERY DIFFICULT, SHE WOULD HURT ME MORE THAN ANY OTHER BUT SHE MADEME LAUGH HARDER THAN ANY OTHER AND I KNOW NOW SHE NEVER MEANT TO HURT, SHE WAS HURTING AND CONSTANTLY STRUGGLING AND UNHAPPY WITHIN. WHEN SOMEONE YOU LOVE SO MUCH IS TAKEN FROM YOU SO SUDDENLY AND SO VIOLENTLY THE EMOTIONS YOU GO THRU ARE OVERWHELMING, ALMOST TO MUCH TO BARE AND YOU WISH SO MUCH IT WAS YOU. I JUST WANTED THE WORLD TO STOP BUT THE BILLS KEEP COMING ANDTHEN YOU PLAN A FUNERAL AND SEE WHAT IS LEFT OF YOU'RE SISTER IN A BOX AND SHOCK IS WHAT I THINK YOU FEEL...THIS IS'NT HAPPENING, YOU DON'T ACCEPT IT..YOU FEEL GUILT, YOU FEEL ALONE, LIKE NOT A SINGLE SOUL UNDERSTANDS THE PAIN YOU FEEL, WONDERING IF SHE WAS SCARED, IF SHE FELT PAIN, IF SHE FOUGHT. THE BOY WAS IDENTIFIED AS A 24 YR OLD MALE NAMED NATHAN JACOBSEN, HE COMMITED SUICIDE AND IT HELPS ME TO THINK SHE SACRIFICED HER LIFE TO SAVE ANOTHER FAMILY FROM BEING HIS VICTIMS. GOD CHOSE HER BECAUSE SHE NEEDED GOD AND HE WANTED HER. SO EVEN THOUGH I KNOW SHE IS AT LAST HAPPY, I AM STILL HERE MISSING MY SISTER...THERE IS NOTHING LIKE A SISTERS LOVE FOR WE ARE JOINED AT THE HEART AND WITH HER DEATH SHE TOOK WITH HER A PART OF ME THAT NO TIME IN THE WORLD WILL GIVE BACK. I KNOW EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND THAT WHEREVER WE ARE IS WHERE WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE, I JUST WISH I KNEW WHAT THAT REASON WAS OR BETTER YET I WISH I DIDNT HAVE TO WISH. I COULD HATE THIS MAN WHO TOOK MY SISTER AWAY FROM US FOREVER BUT IT WONT BRING HER BACK. SO INSTEAD I FEEL ITS BETTER THAT I ACKNOWLEDGE HE WAS VERY SICK AND THAT IT MUST HAVE FELT HORRIBLE TO HAVE HIS HEAD AND SUCH A TROUBLED IND AND SPRIT. I DONT WISH HIM TO HELL ALTHOUGH IF HELL EXISTS HE QUALIFIES, BUT PERHAPS GOD FORGIVES HIM KNOWING HE COULD NOT HAVE BEEN WELL. HE COMMITTED SUICIDE AND I AM HAPPY ABOUT THAT. BEING THERE WAS NO MURDER WEAPON FOUND OR HER CLOTHES HE MAY HAVE RECIEVED NO JAIL TIME DUE TO NOT PROVING BEYOND A REASONABLE DOUBT AND IF I HAD TO LOOK HIM IN THE EYE MY HEART COULD'NT EVER GET THAT VISION OUT. SO I AM LEFT WITH WHAT IF...WHAT IF SHE MOVED IN WITH ME, WHAT IF I WAS WITH HER THAT NIGHT...I WAS ALWAYS THE TOUGHER ONE AND THEN I PROMISE SHE WOULD BE ALIVE AND HE WOULD NOT BE BUT IN REALITY WHAT IF DOES'NT EXIST AND WHAT IF WON'T BRING HER BACK SO I JUST HAVE TO THINK LOGICALLY AND KNOW THIS IS NOT MY FAULT, IT IS ONE PERSNS FAULT AND THAT IS THIS MONSTER WE CALLED MAN.
ReplyDeleteMY ONLY CHOICE IS TO FIND ANY GOOD OUT OF THIS NIGHTMARE I RECENTLY KNOW AS LIFE AND BECOME A BETTER STRONGER PERSON. SO FAR ONE GOOD THING IS THINGS THAT WOULD HAVE HURT OR BOTHERED ME BEFORE CAN'T ANYMORE...WHEN YOU LOSE SOMEONE YOU LOVE SO MUCH IN SUCH A BRUTAL SENSELESS WAY EVERYTHING ELSE SEEMS SO TRIVIAL AND PALES IN COMPARISON. WHEN I AM READY,I WILL SPEAK TO COLLEGE GIRLS OF MY EXPERIENCE AND IF I STOP EVEN ONE GIRL AND ONE FAMILY FROM HAVING TO LIVE THRU SUCH TRAUMA THEN I HAVE DONE GOOD. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AND IT WILL NEVER BE AS GOOD...PEOPLE SAY TIME HEALS ALL, MAYBE FOR SOME IT DOES, BUT AS FOR ME, IN ORDER TO EVER HEAL THAT WOULD MEAN FORGETTING HER AND THAT IS NOT AN OPTION FOR ME. WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GROW OLD TOGETHER...ATLEAST OLDER. WHEN IT FIRST HAPPENED IT WAS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I FEARED THERE WAS NO SUCH PLACE AS HEAVEN BUT I SUPPOSE THAT IS NORMAL FOR FEAR OF NOT SEEINNG HER EVER AGAIN.
MY ADVICE TO ANYONE WHO HAS A DIFFICULT RELATIONSHIP WITH ANY FAMILY MEMBER IS PLEASE ALWAYS END THE CONVERSATION WITH I LOVE YOU, FOR YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN IT MAY BE THE LAST...KIM AND I WERE IN A FIGHT..SHE CALLED ME 2 DAYS B4 HER MURDER AND I SAID I LOVE YOU AND I WILL CALL YOU BACK...SHE SAID NO YOU WON'T BUT THATS OK...SHE DIED A DAY AND A HALF LATER. YOU MAY HAVE SUCH A HARD RELATIONSHIP WITH A SIBLING,IF THEY ARE REAL DIFFICULT YOU MAY EVEN HAVE THOUGHTS YOU WOULD'NT CARE IF THEY WERE'NT AROUND BECAUSE THEY COULDNT HURT YOU OR MAKE YOU UNHAPPY THAT WAY...I KNOW BECAUSE I AM ASHAMED TO SAY I HAD MANY OF THESE THOUGHTS...IF ONLY I KNEW HOW VERY VERY WRONG I WAS..MY WHOLE FAMILY HURTS BUT I THINK ITS QUITE POSSIBLE THAT I AM HAVING THE HARDEST TIME OUT OF ANY OF US..THAT I MISS HER THE MOST. SHE ALWAYS WANTED MY ACCEPTANCE AND WHAT SHE DID'NT REALIZE IS SHE WOULD ALWAYS HAVE IT...SHE WAS MY BLOOD..I HOPE SHE KNOWS IT NOW AND I HOPE SHE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVED HER AND HOW MUCH I MISS HER AND HOW UNBEARABLE THE THOUGHT OF ME NEVER SEEING HER AGAIN IS TO THINK ABOUT. SO IN RESPONE TO YOU'RE QUESTION, YES KNEW KIM PAYTON..SHE WAS MY SISTER, MY HEART, MY DAUGHTERS GODMOTHER, SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY MAID OF HONOR AND SHE WAS'NT SUPPOSED TO LEAVE ME HERE WITHOUT HER...MY LIFE WITHOUT HER IS'NT COMPLETE...SO SOME SAY TIME HEAS ALL BUT FOR ME HE DID'NT JUST TAKE HER LIFE..HE TOOK AWAY A SISTER A DAUGHTER A REALLY FUN AUNT AND A HUGE PART OF MY HEART THAT WILL REMAIN VOID, EMPTY, AND INCOMPLETE UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. SHE IS AT PEACE...IT IS THOSE WHO REALLY KNEW HER THAT HURT SO MUCH. KIM SUFFERS NO MORE AND SHE SUFFERED ENOUGH HERE ON LIFE...SHE WAS ONE OF A KIND, SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND, SHE WAS BEAUTIFUL...SHE JUST DID'NT BELIEVE IT! NOW SHE DOES...
THANK YOU FOR THE PRAYERS AND FORTHIS SITE...I KNOW MY SISTER WOULD LIKE TO KNOW THAT SHE TOUCHED THE LIFES OF OTHERS...SHE CERTAINLY TOUCHED MINE....MY DAUGHTER MISSES HER TOO...I LOVE YOU KIM, SO DOES BABY SONG BIRD...SHE KEEPS UR PICTURE NEXT TO MINE ON HER WALL IN HER TOY ROOM
AND SLUMBER PARTIES WILL NEVER COMPARE WITHOUT YOU...I WILL SCATTER UR ASHES OVER GREECE LIKE YOU WISHED...GUESS ITS GOOD WE TALKED ABOUT STUFF LIKE THAT BUT WISH I NEVER HAD TO KNOW...WISH I COULD TAKE YOU'RE PLACE AND I AM SO MISERABLE HERE SINCE HE TOOK YOU FROM ME AND ITS OK AS LONG AS YOU ARE HAPPY...PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOU ARE! FOR YOU I WILL REMAIN MISERABLE IF IT MEANS YOU ARE FINALLY AT PEACE AND HAPPY WITHIN. I LOVE YOU FOREVER...GUESS SYLVIA BROWN WAS WRONG ABOUT YOU LIVING TO BE 92...BEWARE OF FALSE PROPHETS IN SHEEPS CLOTHES..SHE GAVE YOU FALSE HOPE AND LED YOU CHASING A DREAM THAT ULTIMATELY LED YOU TO AN UNFAIR END SEARCHING FOR JUST THE BEGINNING. IM SORRY I WAS'NT THERE AND I AM SORRY I LET THIS HAPPEN TO YOU...I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF FOR LETTING YOU DOWN.
NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE SAY IT WAS NOTMY FAULT IN MY HEAD I KNOW I KNEW YOU MORE THAN ANYONE AND I SHOULDNT OF GAVE UP...TOUGH LOVE ISNT LOVE AND THE FIRST TIME I WENT AGAINST WHO I AM I LEARNED THE HARDEST LESSON IN MY LIFE. YOU DON'T GIVE UP ON FAMILY...HOPE U FORGIVE ME...
cheri,
ReplyDeleteit is kims siter...the media was very quiet because they did'nt want to ruin the ase..it remains unclosed and it took them 4days before they new where her next of kin was...the idaho state polic had three counties working on the case...she was found nude but there was no evidence of sexual assault...thank you for caring...i appreciate it and so would my sister...
god bless
she had a beautiful funeral at a catholic church...i had to go to idaho, bring her back and plana funeral and i did'nt do an obituary honestly cause i had never done this b4 and i forgot...to me and my family she had very much meaning and as far as his funeral...i am just happy it was a funeral and not a murder trial...she deserved better her whole time here on earth so i won't disagree with that but we brought her home as soon as they would release the body...orange was her favorite color..she was in the sf ballet growing up and dreamed of becoming an actress. she was sad alot and i am not sure why...lonliness maybe...she was picky and always said she would not settle. her favorite place to travel was greece..her true love died there a few years ago and i hope they r together now...she had an almost scary iq but not as street smart and alcohol did not help with that. she loved old movies, foreign films, my daughter, 80's music. her favorite movie was bridgette jones diary because she related to the character. she believed in everything sylvia brown told her and i always thought it was bull crap but if it gave her hope for happiness then i guess its alright.
ReplyDeleteshe was the fun aunt to all the kids...she has two brothers that also miss her very much. they are married with children so its easier for them to keep there minds off of it but not a day goes by where i don't think of her and cry. i hurt so much inside and i am scared i will never be happy again.im so lonely and when i talk to my family i am afraid i will just make them sad soi cry in my car or the shower or right now while i write this. she was very very difficult to coexist with most of the time due to medication mixed with alcohol and other things but she was my sister. we both have ab blood which is gypsy blood and 3months before her murder she told her therapist she had a premonition she was going to die a brutal stabbing death...power of manifestation maybe or power of her...he called my dad even though it was against the patient doc confidentiality and told us he felt we should know.
she liked different names than me like ruby and rose and lily and martha....i have her cat and her name is martha. she could do anything she put her mind to but was often not feeling well mentally or physically so staying with something was her weakness...she loved me so much and my daughter even more...she made up this thing we called day of fun and we wold go to the zoo or waterslides or wherever we could be big kids...she always nicknamed my daughter different names every year like lemon drop pudding pop song bird...she was creative, very funny....the kind of funny that was dry, witty and would make my stomach hurt from laughing so hard. she had a crazy imagination and really knew how to have fun...she was the best slumber party buddy...best scary stories...we would play the ouiga board for fun and scare the kids and she was really one of a kind...i will never meet another kim, nor would I want to....if its not the real thingits not the same. socially she had a way harder time than me...i think much of the reason for that was she was so serious about her ballet and was home schooled and she did'nt have much use for it as a child and teen so sometimes it was hard for her to see how easy it seemed to me. I could search the universe the rest of my life and i could never find a single person that would have the kind of conversation i would have with my sister....off the wall, intelligent, and intriguing. when she was alive she asked my daughter what she thought heaven looked like...just recently my daughter who never remembers a dream told me kim came to her in her sleep and took her to heaven to show her what it looked like...if you knew my sister than you would know it was not a dream..she had an eating disorder and was always worried about her weight for no reason...every dream anyone in our family has had about her she hasbeen eating...when we passed a cemetary in hawaii my daughter out of the blue said kims not alone which made me know that was a concern of hers...so when i asked my daughter what heaven looked like she said there were resteraunts that she could eat at and that she was'nt by herself. She said she could'nt see who she was with but that they had long hair and she thought it was a boy. Then she said god came and told her she had to go home now and my sister took her back to her bed. I know it may seem crazy but honestly, if you knew her, than you would know it was her day of fun with ashley, she knew ashley worried about her lonliness and she wanted to show her what it looked like and that she was ok. So no, there was no obituary...everything was so quick once we were able to get her body and i am only 29 an have never had to plan my sisters and pray i never have to again. however to us she had very important meaning and in my eyes, to god, he chose her to take him out of this world so he could harm no more and so god could hold my sister in his arms and take any pain she ever felt away...he knew how much she suffered within and i think she was so meaningful to this world that we are all very lucky when god made her.
god saw her getting tired and a cure was not to be so he put his arms around her and whispered come to me
with tearful eyes we watched her slowly drift away
although we loved her dearly
we could not make her stay
a golden heart stopped beating
her mind put to rest
god broke our hearts to prove to us
he only takes the best!
born may 5th 1969
entered into eternal rest march 9th2007
yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
now i need a place to hide away
oh,i believe in yesterday
why she had to go, i don't know
she would'nt say
i said something wrong
now i long for
yesterday.....
in loving memory of my sister friend and one of the most beautiful people on earth....
when you ask what her life was like....like i said before...it was hard because she had a hard time with herself but what was she like? i am not sure there is a word good enough to describe her...if only she saw herself the way we did!
I read what you said in the short profile about you and am going through some major lifechange choice...very good for me but scarybeing that its going to be a very different way of life...the reason I tell you this is because if you have'nt already done so there is a book I hope you will read. It is called the alchemist and is written by a brazilian author I believe by the name of Paulo Cohelo and I may very well be spelling his last name wrong, however, if you have not read it already, please do! I can read it over and over and I always get something new out of it. It can help us all make sure we are following our own personal legend...great book...great author...love all his books but that is my favorite and have a feeling you would too!
ReplyDeletelet me know if there is anything else you would like to know about my sister and thank you for even caring..sometimes I try and stay so busy I don't want to think about it but I needed to think and talk about her and I just happened to run across you're page and it was just the outlet I needed. It also just really helps me to be reminded of the good people in the world and so knowing people care is great! I still think there is way more good than bad;)
Kristi,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for telling me and many other people about your sister. This post gets more traffic than all but one. There are a lot of people who care about who she was, which tells me she must have been special to so many.
I can understand not having it together enough to not get all of the details taken care of. When I first wrote this I was operating under the assumption that the newpaper ran obituaries on their own. They don't. None of the news agencies around here are very good. I thought that since they worked so hard to sensationalize her death, they might take a moment to tell us who she was as a person. It didn't seem right to know so much about Nathan Jacobson and nothing about the woman he murdered.
You have made Kim real to me. I am so sorry for your pain. I'm betting that Kim wouldn't want to see you in so much pain. I'm betting that she would want you to live your live with as much happiness and gusto as you can muster. I think the best tribute you could give to your sister is to live the best life you can, because her life was cut terribly short. I think she would want you to make that little girl of yours happy and fulfilled. I'll bet she's proud of you, and she'd want you to know that she loves you and knows how much you loved her.
Thank you so much for writing. Take care,
Cheri
THANK YOU SO MUCH! I THINK YOU ARE RIGHT...IN FACT, I KNOW YOU ARE RIGHT! I AM WORKING ON THAT...YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW REFRESHING IT IS TO ME THAT YOU CARE FOR OTHERS SO MUCH THAT YOU WANTED TO KNOW ABOUT HER. I THINK THATS BEAUTIFUL! YOU REALLY MADE MY DAY...THANKS AGAIN!
ReplyDeleteLOVE,
KRISTI
My name is Gregg Payton, I am Kimberly's dad. My daughter Kristi told me about your site and I have been reading all of the kind things people have been saying about Kim. I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I would also like to thank the Idaho Police force for their handling of my daughter's case. A special thanks to Sergeant Gary Kaufman, Idaho State Police.
ReplyDeleteWhen something like this happens to a loved one all of the wonderful memories surface to your mind. Memories like when my daughter was born. I watched her delivery into this world. The memory of holding in my arms and feeding her baby food. Watching her big blue eyes light up on Christmas mornings as she would open her presents. Those beautiful freckles she had as a child. Her wonderful talent as a ballerina, dancing and staring as Clara in the San Francisco Ballet's Nutcracker. I could go on and on with all of the memories, but what I would like to express to you all is something from deep down in my heart. As my son and I Joshua were viewing her body for the last time the one thing that filled my mind was how much I wish I could just hold her in my arms one more time and tell her how much I love her. If only it could have been me instead of her. Please, never leave a loved one without telling them how much you love them.
Finally, as for the murderer, if I don't forgive him how can I ask God to forgive her, because she too like all of us was and is with sin. Thank you all again for caring about Kimberly.
I have written a song for her that I hope to record soon. When it is finish maybe I can attach it to this site. I Love You Kim. Dad
When you write your song, let me know and I will link to it.
ReplyDeleteI really want to thank you for letting us know about Kimberly. I wish I had met her, she sounds like a great person.
I WILL LET YOU KNOW...SHE WAS A GREAT PERSON! TODAY IS HER NIECES BIRTHDAY PARTY SO I AM SURE SHE WILL BE VERY CLOSE BY. IN THE MEANTIME, I HAVE TAKEN YOU'RE ADVICE AND DECIDED TO LIVE LIFE WITH AS MUCH GUSTO AS POSSIBLE;) THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
ReplyDeleteDad loves you Kim and thinks of you often. I pray that some day I will be able to hold you in my arms again and tell you how much I love you.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE YOU KIM,
ReplyDeleteDAD
I Love You Kim, Dad
ReplyDeleteThe Pain never goes away, nor does your memory. I'm reaching thru this world into the next to tell you how much I miss you and love you. How much I ache inside, how much I pray for God's mercy for you. Not just mercy for you but also for the poor soul that did this horrible thing to you. May you both be forgiven of your shortcomings and live at peace.
ReplyDeleteI Love You Kim, Dad
I love you too kimmy! Miss you every day and I will for the rest of my life! I agree with dad, he must have been a very tortured soul, and you had a lot of pain inside too ( not that I am comparing you to a monster) but i think there are no coincidences and that wherever you are good or bad is exactly where you are supposed to be and sadly you were with a monster! I dont waste my time hating him because carrying hate and resentment only hurts the person that hates and resents and he has hurt me enough and because i am not sure he even deserves such a passionate feeling, also because he doesnt deserve my energy, I need it to keep my missing you from killing me!!! thanks for showing ash what heaven looked like...whats that smell?? LOVESPELL..they changed the bottle it comes in but it still smells delicious..hope you can stop worrying about me now and enjoy your heaven the way you didnt always enjoy your time here with us! S'agapo te amo i love you
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I am Kim's second cousin.Brenda. Gregg is my first cousin. I remember when Kim and Jody were little.I would go over to aunt Hazel's and Kim would be running around the house playing and laughing. She was so pretty.Look up at me with her pretty eyes.So petite with an angel face. She could get around fast.She grew up, and I moved away,and I never saw her again.I was so sorry to hear about the terrible thing that happened to her.My prayers are still with you Gregg ,and all the family.I love all of you very much.
ReplyDeleteHello! I too like Brenda was a second cousin to Kim.Gregg(her father)is my first cousin.I knew Kim through Gregg"s eyes and the family.I remember Kim Her sister Kristi brothers Jody and Josh when they were small children and came to Tennessee for a visit.Gregg, his wife Kathy, Kristi, Josh and Jody are all a well accomplished and talented family.Kim also was very talented, well accomplished.She did and her family still do use their talents to reach out and touch people everywhere.There really is not enough words to express this loss and emptiness that is left without Kim.My hopes are that Gregg"s family and their pain and loss well get easier over time.I love you all.Kim may you be at peace and never forgotten.Love to you all. love Little Carol
ReplyDeleteI didn't know Kimberly as an adult, but as a child what I remember about her is her enthusiasm for life. She liked to talk and was always busy doing something; she had many interests such as swimming, ballet, skiing and she was very good at all of them. She had the biggest, prettiest blue eyes and when you looked at her, you could feel the connection. My feeling about Kimberly is that she couldn't get enough of life. She needed to go that extra yard to feel the joys of life. This was apparent in how she lived her life - not a bland, ordinary person like most of us - and sadly how it affected her death. There was nothing halfway about her. I think about her often and about her family. I hope time will heal the sadness, to some extent. It was an honor to know her, even as a young girl; she will never be forgotten by anyone who knew her. My husband and I are friends with her parents and every time I think of her, my heart really goes out to them.
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I will never forget you Kim. Love you forever. God bless you and your family.
ReplyDeleteHi Kim, last night I prayed that God would be merciful to you so that you might know what it is like to be truly happy now. I also prayed for mercy for the one that murdered you.
ReplyDeleteWe all miss you so much and even though it might sometimes seems like we have forgotten you, you are on our minds daily. You were a part of our being that will always be there. And we will all be there with you in a very short time.
I Love You, Dad
I just learned of Kim's death through a friend and I am deeply saddened by her passing. I knew Kim back in high school when we danced together at The Marin Ballet. Kim was always so full of life and fun. I recall that Kim had her struggles trying to find where she fit, but Kim also had a big heart and such zest for life. I have many good memories with Kim and our crazy high school antics. I still have the pictures from the trip I took to Disneyland with her family one summer and they alway make me laugh. My thoughts and prayers are with her family. I know she was greatly loved and is greatly missed.
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I loved Kim. She was my first love. She moved to Idaho to be with me. We spent the the last days of her life together laughing and loving life. I learned about her death in a interegation room from a police detective who was less than sypathetic. That was the worst night of my life. She was a friend to me, a good friend. She is missed. I only wish I had taken better care of her, but that was not my place. She was a free spirit, chose her own path, had a strong will. She is with God now, at peace. I am a better person for having known her.
ReplyDeleteI went to kims birthday party on Cinco de Maya few years ago in walnut creek at the cantina.She was a very vibrant sweet person whom I really enjoyed talking to. The place was busy and everyone was doing their thing but she seemed to want to talk to me and i got the feeling that she was a very warm nice person. she was very complimentry of her sister kristi who was very proud of. I grew up in Twin Falls, Idaho and played in the rocks as a kid where Kims body was found and the night before I was watching TV and they anounced finding a body off the Perine Bridge I thought it was another hang glider who made a mistake in judgement. The next day I got a call that the body was Kims. I lived a lot of years in Twin and never remember any murders so how unlucky can one person be to move from dangerous Cal. to always safe Twin falls and have this happen. God bless Kim and her family I have a great deal of sorrow for all of you. Your friend always, Charles Cosgriff
ReplyDeleteIt has been a while since I have visited this site because it brings back the nightmare, the pain, the guilt of feeling I should have done more to help her. As I sit here is tears missing her so much and hoping and praying that God forgives us and loves us after this life, I just want her to know that my life will never be the same without her. She was my first child and I still remember the day she was born and calling my mother and mother-in-law to give them the happy news. Please, as hard as it might seem at times, please everyone, overlook your loved ones shortcomings and love them for who they are. Never go away mad or to bed mad at them, believe me, you never know when it will be the last time you see them. I love you Kim, and I hope God let's me see you again.
ReplyDeleteThis is so terribly sad. I can hardly type through the tears.My heart aches so much for the whole Payton family. I am very happy to have you back in my life.
ReplyDeleteThank you Laura, it's great to have you back in our lives too.
ReplyDeleteGregg is my first cousin. I never had the opportunity to meet Kim or my other cousins, but I know them from Gregg's letters. She was a beautiful person on Earth and now she is a beautiful angel in Heaven.
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to kimberly's dad,
ReplyDeletei would like to talk to you. please e-mail me if you want to talk. dkjacobson@gmail.com
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are you a relative of nathans? I am not sure if my father emailed you because I have heard nothing of this but I would like to talk to you...not sure what I would say but i feel like i need to say or hear something! kristipayton@yahoo.com
DeleteI never knew Kim, but I was in school at the community college in Twin Falls when she was found. I remember the news reports, I was really upset. It was strange because the guy who was responsible for her death was attending classes in the same building as me at the College of Southern Idaho, but I didn't know him as he was in a different department.
ReplyDeleteI visited the Perrine Bridge quite often with friends. One night, a few nights before the morning when Kim was found, I was with a friend at a viewing point when we had this dark frightening feeling, a distinct feeling that we should leave. So we left and didn't think anything about it until she was found a day or two later just below that same viewing point. It seemed like a dark premonition or something. I don't know how else to explain it.
I was so upset. My heart went out to her family and loved ones. I hope they are able to find peace. I have since done some research and was able to find this post. I just wanted to thank Cheri and everyone else here who has been willing to open up and tell us about Kim.
You are thinking of a different person. this guy (Nathan) never attended CSI.
ReplyDeleteHe did as a part time student.
ReplyDeletewhat did he take ??? as far as i know he took a few classess in pocatello and took tests at csi to get GED
ReplyDeleteKim was on "The Dating Game", you know, with Chuck Willary...She didn't get picked I don't think, but it was cool nonetheless.
ReplyDeleteWe were also on judge joe brown. He payed us 1000 each, some old landlord sued her for deformation of character, he was awarded a dollar....hahaha
DeleteJeff you made her realize what true love was and I'll forever thank you for that.
DeleteI talked to some of the faculty in my building at CSI and they said they knew him. I thought that had searched his truck at that school. I could be wrong, its been so long.
ReplyDeletewe also went on judge joe brown lol good times
DeleteHey wasn't she a dating game contestant:-D. I still wish I could have had more time to make her happy.
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Kim had a small part in "Mrs. Doubtfire". She was the waitress in a scene that was edited. She had stills of her and Robin in her apartment in California. What else, oh teah. She loved reality television. All types. She loved that show where the chefs competed. She loved Frank Sinatra, she loved to sing and she loved to dance. I was always in awe of her. She could keep a conversation interesting and could always make me laugh...
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ReplyDeleteI don't visit here as often as I should but I wanted to say hi to you Kim. You are always on my mind even though I try to block out your death to ease the pain. I was working this past week and was on my computer. Without punching in this site it popped up on my email site on two different occasions. I'm not a strong believer in the supernatural but I know you were. And I really believe you were talking to me, needing me to say hi and tell you how much I miss you and love you. I pray God lets me hold you again and tell you how much I love you. Dad
ReplyDeleteThey say time heals all wounds yet we're still left with the scars...
ReplyDeleteI wrote this song after seeing the story of "Carlie Brucia, an 11 year old from Florida, who was brutally murdered. It is for the friends and relatives of those who fall victim to the maniacs of this world. I never imagined such a horrible thing would happen to my own daughter.
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I was an old friend of Kim's in Moraga. In Jr. High I would have her over to my house.We would put on our toe shoes and dance in my kitchen. She was quite the ballerina then. I was trying to locate Kim and others from jr. High and stumbled on this site. I'm still in shock from the news. What a tragic loss.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to imagine it's been 4 years since you've been gone and your family laid you to rest. My heart goes out to the Payton family. I'm so very sorry for your loss and I love you all very much.
ReplyDeleteI'll never stop missing you or hurting. Please come to me in a dream and let me know that you are okay. One day, when this life ends, I'll close my eyes and pray to God I can see you and give you a hug and kiss. Your Dad loves you Kim, unconditionally and always.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday baby. Jeffrey.
ReplyDeleteYou treated kcbonz better than anyone. She loved you. Take good care of her.
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Kim is holding you in her arms telling you that she loves you Mr. Payton. Contrary to your belief, one arrives one of God's children because one is perfect. Kim was perfect because she loved. Now she is surrounded love.
ReplyDeleteShe crossed over immediately, regardless of "sin" or "shortcomings".
I know that she adored her little sister. I'm confident that she would want her sister to live a full life...in her honor. She is always with "her girls".
Manifest love...otherwise you fail to exist.
i miss you kimmy! i will miss you for the rest of my life! hope your heaven is amazing...ashley remembers you still, makes me so happy
ReplyDeleteJeffrey says...I just reread the entire post. I, too, miss Kim. My heart stillaches.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sad to read these posts. I have often wondered what ever happened to my 6th grade friend Kim Payton who used to dance ballet as a child. Periodically I have searched the internet for news of her, assuming she was off dancing professionally somewhere. I have recently moved home to Moraga where I grew up, and on a whim today, I tried again to track down Kim...and came across this news. I knew immediately it could NOT be her - but as I stared at the beautiful photo of the young woman she was, I began to wonder if maybe it was my young friend. Reading the posts about where this Kim Payton came from, I am now sure, and terribly, terribly sad, that this is what ultimately became of my young friend. What a tragedy for her and her family. I'm so, so sorry. She was fiery, and stubborn, and a beautiful dancer, and though I lost touch with her, I never forgot her. What a loss...
ReplyDeleteI MISS YOU KIM. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH. IF THERE IS ONE THING THAT I COULD HAVE IN THIS LIFE OR THE NEXT IT WOULD BE TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN AND TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. THANK YOU TO ALL OF THOSE WHO WERE KIND ENOUGH TO WRITE THESE NICE WORDS ON THIS SITE. AND THANK YOU CHERI FOR PUTTING THIS MEMORIAL FOR KIM TOGETHER. I CAN'T THANK ENOUGH, THANK GOD FOR PEOPLE LIKE YOU. GREGG PAYTON
ReplyDeleteHello to all of you....I am so sorry for your terrible loss, as I am only finding out about it now after a random Google search. The grief is horrible.
ReplyDeleteI spent two summers at the San Francisco Ballet School with Kim (who was in my class). I was an outsider from NYC, and she was the very first person I met at the school when I was auditioning. She was really kind to me and that helped (being the "new" kid in a super competitive environment).
I remember spending lots of time in the dressing room preparing for class....Kim and I would prep in front of the mirror, doing our hair in ballerina prima French twists. I always adorned my hair with a single flower. She started wearing flowers in her hair in class after me....a compliment, indeed. I also remember how much she was loved by the teachers at the school (Mrs. Perry, Zola, Helene Koop, etc.) as she had trained there as a small child and was even the lead little girl (Clara) in the San Francisco Ballet's production of "The Nutcracker". That was a very special honor to have been chosen for that role.
I remember those two summers so far away from home and my family. The San Francisco Ballet School had just moved to their (current) location, and for the first time was able to house the ballet students in proper dorms. I'm not sure if Kim stayed in the dorms, but she was around a lot as all of her friends were there. I remember in our spare time, singing all of the songs from the musical "Annie" in the stairwell. She listened and then joined in. Every young girl at that time wanted to be in "Annie".....
The last memory I have of Kim was seeing her a few years later in New York City at The School of American Ballet. I was a full time student there, and she was auditioning for a coveted spot at the school. I was between classes in the dressing room, and walked in to find Kim alone primping near the sink. It was nice to see an old friend....but she was really nervous. I remember the tension all around us, as the competition in NYC was far worse than California. I wanted to tell her that, but kept my mouth shut. She was wearing false eyelashes for her audition....I distinctly remember that. I asked her why she was wearing stage make-up....the memory makes me smile. We were like 15 years old, with big dreams...bewitched by the glamorous, unattainable beauty of the ballet world.
I am happy to remember those special times growing up. I believe that Kim is now in a glorious place...surrounded by all of the music, and dancing that she really loved. All of the ballerinas and stage legends that she so wanted to emulate are now with her. I am sure they are constantly rejoicing in what they loved most, creating art. I know they are all very good friends.
Blessings and light to you, Kim.
Regards,
Michelle
I am so sorry for your loss. My daughter and I were the ones that spotted her under the bridge and called police. My daugher was living in Twin Falls and I was visiting from CA. We decided to do some site seeing. I grew up in Mountain home so I wanted to show her some of the sites that I knew about. This is such a horrible tragedy. I left Kim a rose everyday after that until i went back home to California. I kept up with the local newspaper and saw that the person who did this killed himself. Coward!! I know that Kim is in a better place but again it's a beautiful life cut short. My thoughts and prayers are with her family.
DeleteThank you. We will never get over this loss. Most of the time you go about your day without thinking of it. And then the anniversary of her death comes or you see something on television or at the store that reminds you of her and you have to hold back the tears. But sometimes when I am alone driving in my car I just let it go and cry like a child.
DeletePlease forgive my prior selfish bantering on this sight. I have yet to contribute a concise, well written account of Kim’s final days. I realize now that I owe her and many others my story. I hope, perhaps, this contribution may serve to comfort those who knew Kim best.
ReplyDeleteKim was one of my oldest and most cherished friends. We met in the summer of 1991. We were young, wild, and free. Life was good. She was the first girl I brought home to meet my parents. We ate dinner together. Likewise, I was introduced to her family and picked her up, at her home, brought her roses on Valentine’s Day of the following year.
Our romance turned into friendship as we both explored the world in different directions. We stayed in touch and occasionally shared an adventure. We tended to laugh a lot together. She was one of my most favorite people.
She called me, out of the blue, during the winter of 2007. I was a third grade teacher in Twin Falls, Idaho. She was looking for a change in scenery and I told her about life in Twin.
Kim packed a U-Haul and towed her Honda five hundred miles east, down I80 and up US93 and was soon Idaho’s newest resident.
It was refreshing to see her sweet smile again. We celebrated Valentine’s Day 2007 together at Jaker’s oblivious to the storm outside. She caught the eye of the locals by ordering the finest champagne and wearing a Prada purse.
I remember her handbag being recognized by three separate locals over those few short, cold weeks; all women. They reacted similarly to the sight of the purse. “Oh my God! Is that Prada?” Kim made friends easily.
The handbag was never recovered, but I was told by Nate’s co-worker, Brian, that he had access to an incinerator at his job at the sugar factory.
Up until the night she disappeared we had way too much fun together. We remained thick as thieves up until the night she left. Kim decided to go take part in the final round of a karaoke competition at Kruzer’s Nightclub. I stayed home and quietly graded papers.
Kim really wanted me to go with her that night.
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ReplyDeleteKim really wanted me to go out with her to Kruzer’s the night she went missing. She tried to reason with me as I sat quietly and graded reading tests. I guess, in my own subtle way, I was letting her know we were going out too often. I could have made this point more directly, but we all know Kim wouldn’t have responded well to an attempt at dissuasion. Once she got a plan, she followed it through and that night, she was going out to Karaoke. There was no fight. We didn’t yell or argue. We simply disagreed and she went out while I stayed home.
Before driving less than a mile down the road, as the sun began to set, she spoke her final words to me. “Well, you will at least pick me up if I need a ride?”
Here lies my fault. We teachers have something we like to use called “wait time”. It’s the few moments you wait after asking a question to give the students a chance to think. It allows for higher level of intellectual thought. I did not heed my own advice. I immediately said no, without even glancing up from my stack of papers. She left, both slightly irritated we didn’t get our own way and that was it. I never saw her again.
I noticed her car parked at Kruzer’s a couple days later. I figured she found herself a cowboy and was off on some adventure. I talked to Kristi and she didn’t seem too worried either. He suggested we relax and wait. Her mood changed after about four days when I found out her Honda had been towed.
We decided I should take her “stills” down to the Twin Falls Police station. These, Cheri, are the same pictures you posted on the top of this page.
I learned about Kim’s passing, in a room without windows, several days after her passing. Looking back, I must have been the last person in town to hear about it. My “interview” was intense and I still experience anxiety when recalling the details. I understand the police were doing their job but I am baffled by any claims that I was never a suspect. The first thing the detectives did was rule me out as a suspect. They did this because there was no evidence. They couldn’t find and evidence, not for lack of looking, but because I had nothing to do with her death.
The “Interview” was lengthy and I was as cooperative as possible. I needed them to help my find my friend. Then, at some point, quit abruptly, I was told the facts of the case. Kim had been murdered. Soon after that I was accused of this crime and told to confess. My worry turned into shock and then panic. This was a nightmare from which I could not wake.
I asked the detective if I could speak to my father, Donald Maffly, and he reluctantly agreed. I proceeded to make the most difficult call I have ever placed. My dad responded to my desperate plea with sound legal advice and loving support. In my eyes, this was his finest hour. During the Spring Break of 2007, Don had achieved something I thought he never would; he became the perfect father.
He died in October of 2010 with a grace and nobility afforded those who live an honorable life. He achieved, in the dawn of his life, what once seemed impossible. He had become my closest friend.
I never had a chance to meet Nathaniel Jacobson but I harbor no ill will. I don’t know why he did what he did, but I will have to follow Gregg’s lead on this one.
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I know, somehow, that Kim and my father would expect me to publically offer Nathaniel forgiveness. It’s yours.
ReplyDeleteMr. and Mrs. Payton, Jodi, Josh, and Kristi, I am sorry for not protecting Kim. I talked with Kristi seven years ago about this but have yet to acknowledge my mistake. I should have never said no to such an honest, straightforward request. I will make myself available to you and any of Kim’s closest friends and family if they ever want to talk about Kim’s last few weeks. I will say that she was full of optimistic life energy and was happy, graceful, and charming up until the end.
My gratitude to the Payton family, my parents, and TFSD is without measure. I am also extremely grateful for the people who responded valiantly to this crisis. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart.
Finally, to the Jacobson family; I’m sorry for your loss.
Quit sincerely,
Jeffrey Maffly, M.Ed.
It has been a while since I have visited this site. I just read your comments Jeffrey. We all experience things in life we wish we could go back and do differently. I want you to know that we have know bad feelings over your final words with Kim or what you said to her that night when she left. Thank you for telling us about that evening. I was watching some home movies of Kim today when she was about ten years old. It brought back memories.
ReplyDeleteMarch 2007 I went to visit my daughter who lived in Twin Falls at the time and recently got out of the hospital. I had grown up in Idaho and hadn't been there in many years so I wanted to show my daughter the places I had hung out many years ago. Our first stop was the Perrine bridge. While looking over the into the canyon my daughter spotted Kims body. It was so surreal. I called the police to report it and it took them about half an hour to get there. They couldn't decide whose jurisdiction it was. I was so heart sick. We didn't find out what happened til later. Every morning I went and put a rose on the rock wall for Kim until I went back home to CA. I was happy to hear that they found who did it but sad that this lost soul took her life and his own. I never told anyone but thought I could express my feelings after so many years. I think of Kim often and know that she is in a better place!
ReplyDeleteMy dear aunt, I see so much of myself in you. Being only seven when you passed, I didn't get the relationship with you that I wish I could have now.
ReplyDeleteI wish so badly that I could have met her. She and I are half sisters. I feel so cheated that I didn’t get to know her. She was so beautiful. I love her so much and I know someday I will meet her in Heaven.
ReplyDeleteI still miss her so much. She was delicate and graceful and intelligent and a beautifull human being who deserved respect and compassion, not a knife to the heart. Her final dusk I asked Kim to stay with me and read my 4th grade creative writing papers, correct and grade them. She really, really absolutely would not and had to go out to that stupid flipping club. There was no argument. She left. Fate and Nate had sealed her doom and I’m so flipping sorry I couldn’t stop whatever happened that night but I told her; it’s a weeknight…. These essays are really kind of cool.. you’ll like them… To no avail. There was no screaming or fighting we simply agreed to disagree and she drove her shiny Honda away…
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